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A man in Grand
Rapids, Michigan incredibly took out a $7000 full
page ad in. The paper to present the following
essay to the people of his community.
HOW COULD YOU? By
Jim Willis, 2001
When I was a
puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you
laugh. You called me your child, and despite a
number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered
throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I
was "bad, "you'd shake your finger at me and ask
"How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll
me over for a belly rub.
My housebreaking
took a little longer than expected, because you were
terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I
remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and
listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and
I believed that life could not be any more perfect.
We went for long walks and runs in the park, car
rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone
because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I
took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come
home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you
began spending more time at work and on your career,
and more
time searching
for a human mate. I waited for you patiently,
comforted you
through
heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you
about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your
homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now
your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed
her into our home, tried to show her affection, and
obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then
the human babies came along and I shared your
excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how
they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only
she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I
spent most of my time banished to another room, or
to a dog crate.
Oh, how I wanted
to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As
they began to grow, I became their friend. They
clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly
legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my
ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved
everything about them and their touch -- because
your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've
defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak
into their beds and listen to their worries and
secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound
of your car in the driveway. There had been a time,
when others asked you if you had a dog, that you
produced a photo of me from your wallet and told
them stories about me.
These past few
years, you just answered "yes" and changed the
subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a
dog ," and you resented every expenditure on my
behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in
another city, and you and they will be moving to an
apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the
right decision for your "family," but there was a
time when I was your only family
I was excited
about the car ride until we arrived at the animal
shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of
hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said
"I know you will find a good home for her." They
shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand
the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one
with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers
loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy!
Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried
for him, and what lessons you had just taught him
about friendship and loyalty, about love and
responsibility, and about respect for all life. You
gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes,
and politely refused to take my collar and leash
with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have
one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said
you probably knew about your upcoming move months
ago and made no attempt to find me another good home
They shook their heads and asked "How
could you?"
They are as
attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy
schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost
my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone
passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was
you that you had changed your mind -- that this was
all a bad dream.. Or I hoped it would at least be
someone who cared, anyone who might save me.
When I realized I
could not compete with the frolicking for attention
of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I
retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her
footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day,
and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate
room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the
table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry.
My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to
come, but there was also a sense of relief. The
prisoner of love had run out of days.
As is my nature,
I was more concerned about her. The burden which she
bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the
same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a
tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her
cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to
comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the
hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting
and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay
down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and
murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because
she understood my dog speak, she said "I'm so
sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it
was her job to make sure I went to a better place,
where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned,
or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and
light so very different from this earthly place. And
with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her
with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was
not directed at her. It was directed at you, my
Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think
of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in
your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
A Note from the
Author: If "How Could You?" brought tears to your
eyes as
you read it, as
it did to mine as I wrote it, it is because it is
the
composite story
of the millions of formerly owned" pets who die each
year in
American &
Canadian animal shelters. Please use this to help
educate, on
your websites, in
newsletters, on animal shelter and vet office
bulletin
boards. Tell the
public that the decision to add a pet to the family
is an
important one for
life, that animals deserve our love and sensible
care,
that finding
another appropriate home for your animal is your
responsibility
and any local
humane society or animal welfare league can offer
you good
advice, and that
all life is precious. Please do your part to stop
the
killing, and
encourage all spay & neuter campaigns in order to
prevent
unwanted animals.
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